Sparks Fly!

This title, Taylor's song doesn't come to mind. Honestly, I don't even know her song. What come is "sparks fly, it's like electricity, I might die, as I forget how to breathe". Yes, she sings. Basshunter. He is so cool. Plus the pity for the disease. Unlike some American Idol contestants who audition and somehow they always have a sob story and they cry and they sing mediocrely but they get through. Whatever.

I'm in school. I am failing. I cannot grasp the fact that I have no time. In life, I fear time the most. But in life, time is the one thing I take so much for granted. I mean, come on, I have what 7, 8 months? But truthfully, let's get cracking. I have this dream. Pei Shan, Adela and I go to the same school. And we'll be so happy. And some other people are with us. And happy endings that she wants. Then Adela will be shipped off overseas. Pei Shan would, I think, be trying to get into entertainment. And me? I shall do something. I shall work on World Affairs. Get a scholarship to study overseas. Come back, get married. Cross-state with him all over Europe. Settle down, stable job, have kids. Work from home? Researching. Hm. Big dreams for a small girl. I shall read this in 10 years and see where I've been.

You. Why does everything you say have to be so emotional and mushy? Honestly, I can't even tell if you're with her. I think, you're not. You like her, she might not know it but she knows you. But your friends know it too. So when she does something, you talk about it, she doesn't know, your friends know. But seriously, you're a guy. Man up! You're not supposed to talk about feelings. You should be sprouting nonsense that all guys will "like". Sheesh grow up.

I do feel sorry. Okay goodbye. I probably won't be back here for a long long time.