We trekked past a bunch of la
langs at OBS. I took one and tried; I had forgotten. Does it mean I've forgotten him? The one thing I remember vividly is his face, not even his voice. And I try every day, I should just stop. I'm barely 15.I don't really know why but I get 8 hours of sleep every night and I doze off during Biology or English. Is there something wrong with me? I try to sleep during the day too but all I got was Syahirah telling me to stop sleeping. I'm closer to Haifaa now, somehow. It's a good thing. The team has started complaining. When will there be a time there's complete unity?
Irfan asked me out last Saturday; to an airshow. I still feel bad that he went alone. Sometimes, some things just aren't worth passing on. Instead, I went to lunch with Syahirah downtown, and to town with my mom's French friends. It was pretty cool.
Monday, we played volleyball. It was pretty fun. Amanda turned 15. I would've celebrated if it wasn't with our class. I think she's changed, Adela. She used to care, now she doesn't. And she only does when she feels guilty. Now I get the gist of what they were lecturing us about; just because they're in the team, it does not qualify their position among us, so who do they think they are to act superior with us?
I've learned 2 things. Firstly, the one thing greater than your parents' disappointment in your failure, is yours. Secondly, secrets can never be kept safely within a family. They're your family, just tell them instead of running away with a pack of lies. Maybe it's more complicated than that. Maybe I'll learn to learn.
I don't feel like colour-coding my paragraphs. Do I feel black and white today?
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